In the NOW

In the NOW

Getting it all together, one part and then another, to finally get to the long awaited, much anticipated matric dance, brought my awareness back to appreciate and savour every part of the build-up, all the way to the actual event.

My personality tends to be in the clouds – creative thinking – ostrich attitude towards the negative as my sensitive soul easily trips into overwhelm, which requires self-discipline to stay in the present.

The privilege to be a mom of a beautiful daughter with her strong personality, brought out the best in me. I was able to allow her free will and choice to create her dream dress with the Meister Thomas, and very much enjoyed the process with her.

What an extravaganza it became! The artist sister-cousin Amy make up was perfection…. my ever laughing, right there with me Telani kept me strong ….. the photo shoot in the magnificent garden of Laura and Abe, took my breath away and one or two tears slipped out of my controlled intentions not to cry.

Full awareness of the time racing by and that soon she will no longer be in my home every day – only a few more months to go before I have to hand her over to the army of guardian angels I have summonsed in advance as she leaves the nest. Meanwhile all I have is each day – working on my own anxiety of a future unknown for myself as well as my precious child, this beautiful country and the greater ripples on the pond.

Awareness of the process of letting go of the past regrets or hindsight and cultivating the future with trust and faith that all will be as it should be, is all we really have. This takes place in the present moment of the NOW, every day, one day at a time. “I know that I know nothing and accept that I control nothing – I need to do my part and then let go and let God.”

On a practical level I try to seek out that which brings me joy. Laughing is the most energizing and replenishing energy to me and I am trying to loosen up my German DNA of ‘not being aware of having a sense of humour’.

Noticing the magnificence of my daughters blue eyes….. watching my Iceberg roses budding and blossoming into the October splendour…. Noticing the vines pushing the freshest green spring leaves….savouring the love expressed by the presence of family…. tucking these precious memories into my soul to be savoured forever.

The past is the past….. we can’t change the story but we can change how we tell our story. The future is unknown – all we have for sure is NOW - today.

Life coaching is a practical outcome talk therapy.

Neuro-Linguistics (NLP), Modern Applied Psychology and Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT).

For more information contact: Karin Engman @ Mind Wellness 082 7246985

For your appointment @ MIZPAH (opp JJ School) or @ HUMMINGBIRD (home office) - ERMELO

Published Author: “A Path of Choices”